Panaceatic

Not only is the Earth round, but life as well.

My spring does not go on forever.

My summer has become people.

Sometimes I just wanna stay inside a mountain of fall leaves.

And some winters steal the show too much.

Fine.

Complexial

Why am I this complicated?

Why do I take everything personally?

Where does this anger come from?

Can therapy help me? (Can I afford it?)

Trustish

What is trust?

I learned that it’s when you follow through–when you do what you say you’d do.

And I realized I’ve had relationships with people before who kept on breaking my trust.

People who arranged a meeting with me and made me wait and canceled at the last minute.

People who I trusted to keep messages between us private, but had someone read them.

Still, I pushed through because I cared about them.

But what did it get me?

I was named the villain now (lol).

So I got rid of those toxic relationships.

Is it normal though to feel guilty, like you’re feeding your ex-friends to the wolves?

I guess.

But it’s their choice.

We all live with our choices.

Good or bad, we live with them.

TikTokician

2020 me: I will NEVER do TikTok.

2023 me: Spends countless hours browsing fyp and bought a lapel mic to voice over my posts.

In my defense, I thought you can only dance and lip-sync in that app.

While it can be a garbage dump sometimes or a locked storage unit you won on a bid of $200,

there’s no doubt that social media power is real.

Comebackist

What can I say? It’s been more than a year.

Am I still stuck? Sort of (lol).

But I moved from where I was a year ago.

Like physically moved.

To America!

What awaits me here?

Life, of course.

There’s no escaping life!

Well, there is.

But life is as good as it sucks.

I guess it’s okay to be stuck?

For now.

While I have the patience for it.

Stuckation

This feeling of being in a standstill is my least favorite feeling of all.

Unoverthink

Aside from staying alive & living okay, the reason why I want a regular job is to tire myself out at the end of the day that I have less energy & time to overthink life.

Yes, LIFE. Not only my life but I’m also overthinking about THE life.

I’m even overthinking about publishing this post because I’m overthinking how you’ll judge me.

But do I even have to care about you?

Efficiensility

Got up to pee, went back to room then felt poopy so went back again.

Self, we gotta talk about efficiency.

Techysm

No wonder some people choose to get off the grid.

This technological age’s stress is more than overwhelming.

Talk about a surplus of trust issues.

Boredominity

That level of emptiness when you watch a YT vid and IG vid at the same time.